Mother's Day 2010

As I wake this morning, I feel so many emotions.......

I am so thankful for my Mother. Now that I am a Mother it is so different! I appreciate her more now than ever. I think I always appreciated her, but never really knew this much. Looking back she did it all. She was able to stay home with us (thank you Dad for working so hard) and was there for everything! She was a wonderful cook and baked all sorts of goodies. (I think that's where I get a lot of my love for cooking!) She helped us with our homework, cleaned our scrapes and soothed our hearts when they were broken. She taught us right from wrong, hugged us, cleaned up after us, drove us places and made sure we were dressed cute, even when money was tight. She did for us and thought about herself last. Now I know she was trying to teach me to be a good Momma! She continues to do things for us and I have realized...she does these things because she wants to....not because she has to. So thank you Mom. I love you very much and only aspire to be half of what you have become!

Next I am thankful for my baby girl Jillian. I came across this quote and thought it was so true! "The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. The woman existed, but the mother, never. The mother is something absolutely new." Rajneesh~ I really never knew how wonderful it could be. She is such a gift. I have loved watching her grow over the year and she amazes me. I used to tell my Hubby....I just want her to say Momma ,hug and kiss me. She does all those things now and it just melts my heart! I always heard Mothers gush about these things, but it is so different when it happens to you! I look forward to all the changes and already miss the things she used to do! Thank you Jillian for all the joy you bring to my life!

I am also so thankful for my Hubby. He helps out so much and I am truly blessed. Without him there would be no Jillian.....and what kind of world would that be?? The other emotion I have when it comes to my Hubby is sadness. Unfortunately his Mother is no longer with us. I wish I could have met her, I wish she could see the kids, but I do know she is with us every day, watching over us! Also his Sister Patty who is no longer with us. She raised him since he was about 8. I know he misses her too terribly and it breaks my heart!

Lastly, I couldn't forget my Step-kids! They play such an important role of my life too. I can happily say, I am not heavily drinking, yet! Now "yet" is the key word :P I know that I am not a perfect Step-Mom , I am learning as I go. It has been so much fun watching Gwen and Jake grow. They have changed so much since I first met them. We have our squabbles sometimes, but for the most part I think we get along pretty darn good. It is a little scary having 2 teenagers around and I hoped it would help when Jillian is a teenager. Now I am hoping for Alzheimer's by then! Actually I am very blessed. They are very good kids. I also look forward to watching them grow.